My name is Mary/Pumpkin. I am one person who has two different personalities, who suffers with a dual diagnosis of depression and drug addiction and I happen to be suicidal. Yet, that is not my story. I am a survivor who lives every day with HOPE. No, life is not always easy and every day is a challenge; however, I have learned to become an advocate for change because society misuses and misunderstands the word addict and needs to understand that everyone has a form of addiction.

It is easy for society to look down on the person suffering with drugs and alcohol but what about the closet addict that lives every day with an addiction and the world does not see or want to believe they have a problem? I, Mary/Pumpkin, had to learn to examine myself and learn what was the ROOT cause of my addictive, mental and suicidal behavior. Once I became a consumer of mental health and received the correct treatment for my undiagnosed mental illness and drug addiction my life began to change. I began to accept my bottom and from there I gained knowledge and recovery from my addiction and undiagnosed mental disorder. I began to conquer and get my life back.

I have learned that all suffering addicts must first admit to their addiction and admit life has become unmanageable. I have learned when the addict becomes true to thy-self, the world of sobriety opens. It is only through knowledge that recovery can be understood and with acceptance that only a Higher Power can save them and give any addict power and the necessary tools to defeat addiction, depression and thoughts of death.

See. I am a survivor of mental health, drug abuse and life of suicidal behavior. For anyone who has walked in my shoes, I can tell you, it is only a Higher Power as the reason why I am not amongst the walking dead.